7 is my Favorite Number

It is my day of birth.  

My lucky number.

AND

The number of days until my birthday!

Woot!  

What shall I do for my birthday?  

HMMMM.  

Any suggestions out there?  

MY FIRST GIVEAWAY!!!!!

So, I haven't gotten big enough for anyone to want to give me anything to give to you guys yet. I'm trying though and I even gave my face to science for you yet nothing in return!  HUMPH!  I never...well, yes, I really have, but that is another story.  

As you know I have been de-cluttering my life and wow it is so freeing.  I can't tell you how many things I have given away or consigned...my house is looking pretty awesome.  I still have a few areas left to tackle.  My office, loft, shed and basement storage.  Once that is done then I am free!!!!!!  I started the loft project and I have so many items that are brand new (in original packaging) that need to go on eBay, Craigslist or just given away (don't ask why).  So, since I am seeing the light I thought I would share a few goodies with you.  

Giveaway #1 is a Multiple-Choice Correspondence Binder: Because Life Is Fill-In-The-Blank.

Following is the description I pulled off line:

Multiple-Choice Correspondence (MCC) is the next huge trend in epistolary communication. Why write longhand when there’s a multiple-choice letter to suit every life occasion? From breakups to noisy neighbors to nuptials, MCC is at turns hilarious, poignant, and downright utilitarian. * A great gift for the beleaguered correspondent * 43 letters in all, 112 pages total, all on 100-pound cardstock * Each letter is a self-mailer—just fold, seal, and send! * Letters are perforated for easy removal and twice scored for folding facility * After letters are removed, a checkbook-style stub is left to record the letter’s vital statistics * Sheet of round sealing stickers is bound into book * Classy introduction discusses the history of formulaic communication * Book is 10 x 11.25 inches, letters are 6.25 x 11 inches

What do you have to do to get this awesome giveaway?  Send me an email by June 4th at middlerageously@gmail.com telling me "you need a little correspondence in your life".  I'll use random picker to choose the winner which will be announced on Friday, June 5th.  

Good Luck!

Good News, Bad News

Well, the good news is I've been seeing someone and it isn't Bob!  We've only been going out a little over a week, but we have been together 7 of 9 days.  As you know this is a milestone for me because I normally don't make it past date #1.  Sad yet true.  So, far I haven't been able to pick him apart and he said he won't let me.  LOL  I'll keep you posted but it looks good; I do think he may be doing the Jedi Mind Trick on me or maybe, just maybe I've finally met someone who I may be compatible with.  I'm not looking for perfection just someone perfect for me or a better translation, someone who can deal with my shit and I can deal with his.  

We have the same cents of humor (yes, I meant cents because neither of us really think it's worth much) which is good or bad depending on the person.  For example: last night I was standing very close to him (after exchanging germs) and he said "huh, it's time to wax that moustache again."  I fell out laughing, covered my mouth and said "awww man...that's not right!"  It was funny though.  I thought I had a few more days honestly, but guess where I am going today?  WAXING!

Who in your life keeps you laughing and never seems to offend you?  As crazy as my life is, I definitely need laughter!

Your Husband May Be in His 20s BUT...

...you are not! Sweet Butterfly, I love your music, but it is time to start dressing your age stop dressing like a hoochie and start showing a lot more class!!!!! PLEASEEEEEEE I beg you!

Click pix to make larger and see how scandalous Mimi was at LAX recently.

What a bad representation of a hot 40 year old...she is now going to just start being sad.  Demi, please give Mariah some lessons on holding it down while having a younger hubby.  

What do you all think?  

If You Didn't Know...

...in the midst of my trying to figure out what to do with my life, I'm actually a part-time interior decorator.  I really enjoy it and am actually very good at it.  Modest I know.  My clients, family and friends don't know why I fight it...I'm not sure, I guess that's the MBA in me. However, I think I am going to start small projects again.  I really miss it. The joy of spending thousands of dollars of someone else's money.  Have you ever bought a $10,000 dining room table (not including chairs)?  I have!  I felt like a baller even though it wasn't mine, I was representing the rich yet not so famous.  

And going to design shows???  Talk about furniture porn...it was the next best thing to an orgasm I've ever had!  No, really! For a designer (lover of furniture or furniture snob) I kid you not!  So, why am I revisiting this you ask?  One of my blog buddies, Tam, is in the process of redoing her home and is looking at chairs this month so I'm adding my .02!  So, Tam, I hope some of these pictures are helpful.  I'll keep you guys posted on my new projects and heaven forbid I start a third blog!  I just couldn't take another!  LOL

What small steps are you making to move toward your dreams this year?  Happy Friday and have a Safe and Happy Holiday!  

My Nephew Wants an Older Woman

I just got off of the phone with my nephew who is a very handsome and a young 20.  Every single time he calls me one of the first things he says is "Auntie do you have a woman for me?" I laugh hysterically and continue to tell him he can't even buy alcohol legally so NOOOO.  He says he doesn't need to, he can do other things.  I laugh even harder and tell him he isn't messing with an 18 year old he would get his feelings hurt.  ;-)  

"Oh, c'mon Auntie, I'm tired of these young girls and their games and dumb conversations.  Plus, I know all of your friends are fine and not silly. I want a WOMAN!  So c'mon Auntie...hook me up!"  

Tami is now ROTFL.

I finally told him sure, I would try to find him a woman.  So...here is my attempt...tee hee.  Does anyone want a 20 year old Army boy oops MAN (as he calls it)?  LOL  I'm just being a good Auntie.  

Things We Give Up For Companionship

All we want is love, but as Chris Rock says (paraphrasing) the one we end up marrying is second runner up because our first choice married someone else.  Or is that we end up being someones second runner up?  I think the point is we both end up being each others second choice.  Ok, not you TamStyles since you two have been together since you got breasts and he felt you up.  ;-)

Is this really true?  Do we really end up marrying the second runner up?  Was my greatest love to date really the love of my life?  Will there be no other love to compare?  Is that why so many people are still single because we are still looking or waiting for that first great love to return? Oh, better to love and to have lost then to have never loved at all!  What a crock!  Hee Hee.  As much as that hurt...hmmm me thinks I could have done without all the pain, tears and...I did enjoy the lost weight though...but it was fun while it lasted. 

Here's my dilemma:

I have this friend I'll call Bob.  Bob loves me to death and will do absolutely anything for me. And has.  Even listened to me cry about other men.  I know, I know!

The problem is...I'm just not that into him like he is into me.  We have had this conversation over and over for say 5-6 years.  He wants to move here (from the other side of the US) to be with me.  I'm not interested in that type of relationship with him and I don't want to ruin or loose our friendship.  Some people have said I should just marry him because a marriage is more than sex or attraction but I still have this...FANTASY (WOW) that I can be deeply attracted to my mate and be madly in love and have great sex.  Come on!  I'm still not even 40 yet.  I'm not ready to give up on that dream.  Plus I do love him and I wouldn't want to put him in a situation to make him feel not wanted or loved just for the sake of being with me and making my life easy.  Damn my morals!

What do you all think?  As we get older and are looking to get married for the first or second time do we give up things such as true love for companionship?  What should I do with my friend?

Are You Lying About Your Age?

Proudly we proclaim 40 is the new 30.  Yes, what a great sisterhood we have in our new found "youth".  New goals are set and we finally understand the statement youth is wasted on the young.  We promise not to do "that" anymore because we are smarter, stronger, and wiser now.  

But are we? 

Many women over 40 still feel the pressure from society to lie about their age.  40 is still 40... meaning it's just old.  No one will want you.  Hang it up.  You will never get married.  YIKES! So, many beautiful women believe the hype and start off relationships carrying an unnecessary burden or misleading the man.  Sure, men do it to...I've met a few and when I found out I gave them the boot.  I didn't want to date anyone in that age bracket (50s) and I certainly didn't want to date anyone that would lie about their age.  It just didn't bode well with me.  

I know I'm just turning 40 but as I'm online dating there are LOTS of men that are not interested in dating me because of my age.  OK.  Keep in Moving.  They just are not meant for me.  I come with other issues too...at age 35 I lost my ability to have children.  Try telling a man that.  Keep it moving.  I know there is a man for me, but I'm not going to lie about who I am. Plus, I'm a terrible liar anyway.  Just ask my mother.

I know some of you do it and have done it.  I don't mean to offend and I'm not berating you...it's just not my thing. But remember all of these little cliches:  

• You're only as old as you tell yourself
• Age is only a number
• Age is mind over matter, if you mind then it matters
• Get up and move (I just made that one up)
• If they don't want you the way you are, the hell with them (ok, I made that up too)

Finally, thanks to Fabulous After 40 for posting this video from CBS about Should Women Lie About Being Over 40...this actually sparked my post for the day.

Watch CBS Videos Online

 So, what do you think?  Is it okay to lie about your age?  

I'm Golfing!

Yesterday I had my first golf lesson!  Yeah!!!!!  I think I'm going to love golf.  I also did great.  All of the men were very impressed.  I got the wind up under my balls (golf balls of course, I don't have the other kind) as they said.  I also have great hand eye coordination.  They said by the end of the summer I will probably be good...for my first season playing that is.

I'm going out again on Saturday so I'll try to get some pictures of me in a swing for you all.  I guess I can cross golf off now.  Finally a cross off.  Whew, I was getting a little lazy there!  

Does anyone else play golf?

Electrolysis or Bust!

I have only achieved a fraction of my Rocking 40 List so far, but this weekend I came up with the first of my Nameless 41 List(any suggestions for a name?).  I have decided that my moustache dainty lip hairs are out of control!  I can't take it anymore!  As soon as I wax or use that little tool from CVS they pop right back up...just like my darn gray hairs!  To make matters worse, they are dark brown/black.  Very noticeable...possibly a dirty upper lip, a rash, huh a moustache!  No woman is supposed to have whiskers on her face!  It just is not normal!  Therefore, the first addition to my Nameless 41 List is Electrolysis.  Maybe I can get my eyebrows done at the same time so I can keep my fabulous $75 looking eyebrows all the time!  

Has anyone had electrolysis?  Does it hurt?  What is the cost I wonder for my little lip?  Do you think I should get it done for my eyebrows also?

Beauty Tricks

I've heard from many of you that you have gotten rid of (or are trying to) your dull wardrobe in order to get your sexy back.  Let's not forget our face.  Everyday, as I look in the mirror, I think "yea, you're still cute albeit not that IT girl like you used to be," c'est la vie.  Buttttt...I'm going to hold onto this cute, sexy woman as long as I possibly can and man it is work!  I would much prefer the Ben & Jerry's to the Tofu anyday!  And we are only hitting 40 now...argghhh.  Oh, well, I'm sure once I figure out what works it will be a breeze.  At least that is what I tell myself.  Anyhoo,  just like I'm purging my closet because that cute little black dress is no longer so cute, I need to rethink my makeup choices.  So, thanks to More (the May issue) following are a few (ok, 40) tips for us all:    

1. Switch to a sheer foundation. "Pores get larger as we age and a full-coverage foundation settles into them, making them look even bigger," says Pat Wexler, MD, a dermatologist in New York City. A better bet: Use a light, hydrating formula and apply in a thin layer.
2. Go golden. "Skin loses pigment -- and radiance -- as you age. So either switch to a foundation with a warmer tint, add a drop of liquid bronzer to your favorite foundation, or make bronzing powder part of your makeup regimen," says Sandy Linter, a consulting makeup artist for Lancome. Try Clinique True Bronze Bronzing Gel ($19, clinique.com), Estee Lauder Bronze Goddess Sun-Blush Illuminator ($32, esteelauder.com), Elizabeth Arden Mineral Bronzing Powder ($32, elizabetharden.com) or YSL Tresor D'Afrique Bronzer Sun Powder ($72, yslbeautyus.com).
3. Cover blemishes correctly. "Never use an undereye concealer to hide a pimple -- it slides right off," Wexler says. "I prefer an oil-free concealing pencil. It's opaque enough to cover but dry enough that it stays put." Her favorite: Shiseido The Makeup Corrector Pencil ($17, sephora.com).
4. Put on two layers of moisturizer. Apply one before foundation, then pat on a second, very light coat over your makeup. "This gives your skin a dewy finish and an extra dose of hydration," says Audrey Kunin, MD, a dermatologist in Kansas City.
5. Create the illusion of lift. "Use an illuminating cream or powder on your upper cheekbone, the center of your forehead, and just below your lower lip," says Laura Geller, a makeup artist in New York City. "The first two spots make the top of the face appear lifted, the latter detracts from sagginess around the chin." Good for most skin tones: DiorSkin Shimmer Powder in Pop Diamond ($43, sephora.com) or Laura Geller Liquid Candlelight Face and Body Glow ($24, qvc.com).
6. Use hot flash-proof makeup. "Water-resistant eyeliner and mascara stay put when your body temp soars," says Geller, who also recommends keeping powder to a minimum since it cakes up on a damp face. Try Cover Girl Exact Eyelights Waterproof Eye Brightening Mascara ($8, drugstores).
7. Get cheeky. "A rosy color on the apples of your cheeks brightens not-so-radiant skin," says makeup artist Bobbi Brown. Two we like: Jane Iredale Cream Blush in Clarity ($26, dermstore.com) and Bobbi Brown Cheek Tint in Sheer Raspberry ($22, bobbibrowncosmetics.com).
8. Book brow time. "Eyebrow shaping takes five years off your face. Have it done by a pro, then follow the lines yourself. Thinking you can create the right shape is like thinking you can cut your own hair," says Kimara Ahnert, a makeup artist in New York City.
9. Stop waxing your brows after 40. "You're killing the hair root," Linter warns. "If you ever want to grow back those hairs, you're out of luck."
10. Do a mini eye-lift. "Use a brow pencil or powder along the top line of your arches to make the whole eye appear raised," Geller says.
11. Stop eyeliner bleed. "Apply liner as you usually do, then use a cotton swab to subtly smudge the line at the outer corners, directing it upward," Linter says. "Skip this step and the color will settle into your smile lines, making you look tired."
12. Don't neglect your nails. Keeping your tips buffed to a shine -- or polished in a color with some blue or pink in it (too much yellow accentuates sallowness) -- will make your hands look younger. A lacquer that works on almost everyone: OPI Nail Polish in Otherwise Engaged ($7, opi.com for stores), an opalescent pink.
13. Kiss dark lipstick good-bye. A very deep, dark lip hue is unattractive if it bleeds into the creases around your mouth. Soft, neutral shades such as rose or peach for fair to medium tones and sheer browns and berries for dark skin are the most flattering. Try Shiseido Perfect Rouge Lipstick in Venetian Rose ($25, sephora.com) for fair to medium skin, or Laura Mercier Shimmer Lip Colour in Candy Pink ($22, lauramercier.com) for dark skin.
14. Be wary of too many layers. The whole "no long hair after a certain age"' thing is total bunk, but be careful of a cut that's too shaggy, says Ted Gibson, a New York City stylist, "If your hair is graying, avoid lots of layers, because they make wiry strands even more stubborn and unruly."
15. Think bangs, not Botox. Use your hair to camouflage forehead lines. But ensure that bangs are brow-skimming and fringed (not blunt) at the ends so the look isn't too severe.
16. Skip the jaw-length bob. A style that hits right at the jawbone emphasizes any sags. "Go for something about an inch longer," Gibson suggests. "It's just as chic, but it hides slack skin."
17. Give mousse another try. If your last encounter with this foamy volumizer was when Madonna wore headbands, here's the scoop: There's a new mousse in town, reformulated so it still thickens but no longer stiffens. "A golf ball-size dollop applied to damp hair plumps your strands but still leaves them soft," says Boston-based stylist Gretta Monahan, who likes Dove Body and Lift Volumizing Mousse ($3, drugstores).
18. Use a boar-bristle brush. "Gray hair is often kinky and hard to smooth," says Farah Reid, director of education at New York City's Blow salon. "Using a boar-bristle brush while blow-drying grabs and holds on to hair, creating more tension than you'd get with plastic or metal bristles." Try the Mason Pearson Boar Bristle Pocket Mixture Brush ($90, beauty.com).
19. Don't shampoo every day. Sudsing up more than three or four times a week can dry your hair and fade your color. "As you get older your scalp produces less oil, so you don't need to wash as often," says Kyle White, a colorist at New York City's Oscar Blandi Salon. "But if you just can't get used to the idea of a day without cleaning your hair [or you work out -- and sweat -- a lot], get in the shower and rinse with just water, or spray a dry shampoo into your roots, then brush it through." Try Bumble and Bumble Hair Powder ($34, bumbleandbumble.com).
20. Add a few highlights by your face. "It brightens up your skin and softens the look of fine lines," says Jason Backe, a colorist at Gibson's salon.
21. You're going gray where? If you want to match the hair down there to what's on your head, try a color kit safe for sensitive skin (look for something made without ammonia). The creator of Betty Hair Color, Nancy Jarecki, points out that if you're tired of the natural look, going orange or hot pink might perk things up a bit. (And you thought the Brazilian was your only option.) Betty Color $15, bettybeauty.com) comes in 10 shades.
22. Try a hair growth inhibitor. A prescription cream like Vaniqa or an over-the-counter option such as Aveeno Positively Smooth Moisturizing Lotion ($8, drugstores) reduces the growth of coarse body hair that can be caused by hormone fluctuations.
23. Invest in a magnifying mirror. To zero in on stray hairs -- around your eyebrows and elsewhere -- skip the reading glasses and pick up a small magnifying mirror with suction cups. If you stick it on the bathroom cabinet, you may be surprised at what you'll see in a different light.
24. Peptides. We repeat: peptides. Every single dermatologist we interviewed insists it is the most effective ingredient in serums and moisturizers to firm and lift. One peptide-packed product that works on all skin types: Kinerase C6 Peptide Intensive Treatment ($96, sephora.com).
25. Add retinol to your regimen. Whereas peptides plump and firm, retinol (or tretinoin, its Rx cousin, in products like Retin-A and Renova) smooths and evens out skin tone. Try ROC Retinol Correxion Deep Wrinkle Serum ($22, drugstores).
26. Breaking out? Don't even think about borrowing your teen's medication. "Their acne products contain benzoyl peroxide, which is too drying for older skin. A product made with salicylic acid, antioxidants, and calming ingredients will work just as well without leaving your skin dry and tight," says Wexler. We like Neutrogena Rapid Clear Acne Defense Lotion ($8, drugstores) and Pat Wexler Acnescription Overnight Acne Repair Lotion ($20, bathandbodyworks.com).
27. Hormone surge? Up the ante. "Women can get cystic pimples well into their 40s," says Denver plastic surgeon Christine Rogers, MD. If you tend to erupt the week before your period (or, if you're perimenopausal, around the time you feel like you're PMSing), exfoliate with an at-home scrub or peel twice a month to keep pores clear and slough off dead skin cells, clearing the way for (and boosting the potency of ) your treatment products, says Los Angeles dermatologist Zein Obagi. At-home scrubs that promise results without lasting redness: Kate Somerville ExfoliKate Gentle ($65, katesomerville.com) and Olay Regenerist Detoxifying Pore Scrub ($9, drugstores).
28. Fight fine lines -- in the shower. Before you step under the water, massage a drop of grapeseed oil into the skin around your eyes for 10 minutes, Obagi says: "It will improve skin texture." The oil is moisturizing, yes, but it also contains antioxidants that fight wrinkle-causing free radicals, which are deposited on your skin by UV rays and pollution during the day.
29. Sleep on two pillows. "Keeping your head elevated prevents fluid from collecting around your eyes during the night and causing puffiness in the morning," says San Antonio-based dermatologist Vivian Bucay, MD.
30. Put your eye cream in the fridge. "The cold temperature shrinks blood vessels and helps to minimize undereye bags," Obagi says.
31. Moisturize in layers. "For maximum plumping, follow your regular lotion with a heavy cream or facial oil. On really bad beauty days, I put on oil and wait an hour before looking in the mirror," admits makeup artist Bobbi Brown, who swears by Bobbi Brown Extra Face Oil ($60, bobbibrowncosmetics.com). A 10-minute moisturizing mask also plumps you up fast. We like Sonya Dakar Hydrating Blue Mask ($67, sonyadakar.com).
32. Baby your neck and chest. Because the skin there is so thin, these areas generally don't age as well as your face -- especially if you've been lax on sunscreen. "Using a moisturizer with retinoids or peptides will help," says Miami and New York City-based dermatologist Fredric Brandt, MD. "But your skin in these areas is sensitive, so don't use it every night -- that could leave you overly red and flaky."
33. If all else fails, go Italian. "Skin luminosity makes you look younger," Rogers says. "Once a year, I go bike riding in Italy, where I can eat all I want and look at gorgeous Italian men all day. It makes my complexion glow."
34. Remove stains at home. Combine equal parts baking soda and hydrogen peroxide, and use it to brush your teeth once a week. "This combo removes surface stains -- and it's totally safe," says New York City cosmetic dentist Gregg Lituchy, DDS.
35. Follow the 20-minute rule. "Whitening toothpastes don't stay on the teeth long enough to work," Lituchy says. "A product should sit for at least 20 minutes to provide any kind of noticeable result." To lighten at home, try Crest Whitestrips Advanced Seal ($45 for a two-week supply, drugstores), which should be worn for 30 minutes twice a day.
36. Consider porcelain veneers. "Many women over 40 were given tetracycline as children, which permanently darkened their teeth," Lituchy says. "Whiteners alone probably won't bleach out the stains, but porcelain veneers instantly and permanently give you a white smile." Veneers start at about $500 per tooth.
37. Get a dental facelift. Cheek sagging is often caused by receding gums as we age. "If you have your teeth subtly built up with thin veneers or bonding, it stretches the tissue of the upper lip and gives you a natural facelift sans surgery," says New York cosmetic dentist Jeff Golub-Evans, DDS.
38. Wear a scent that's not too spicy. Fragrance can make you feel fresh, femme fatale-ish, or even formidable. But don't overdo it. "During menopause, when your body temperature can spike spontaneously, you should avoid intense scents. Heated up, they become cloying," says Debbie Wild, fragrance and lifestyle director for Jo Malone. A safe but still sexy pick: Jo Malone Honeysuckle and Jasmine Cologne ($55, jomalone.com).
39. Make your scent endure. Another by-product of dry skin? "Fragrance doesn't last as long," Wild says. What helps: slathering on body lotion before you spritz to give your skin a slightly tacky surface -- and something for your scent to latch on to.
40. Raise your brows for photos. "This gives the appearance of an instant facelift," Kunin says. (If you aren't Botoxing, this is your payoff.)

If you read all of this (you are amazing)...do you have any other tips?  

Lessons Learned

On many blogs I've learned about some great musicians and even gotten some inspiration through some fabulous music.  So, you know me...I thought I would jump on that bandwagon.  Today, I'm so feeling Carrie Underwood's Lessons Learned.  

I'm trying to come to terms with my life and the things that have or have not happened in it YET and I love listening to this song.  It reminds that they are all just lessons learned.  

Enjoy.  

"Lessons Learned"

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some bitter endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,
I never should've taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

And all the things that break you,
Are all the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone,
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Lessons learned.

Happy Cinco De Mayo!

I went from this at 4:30.

To this at 7:00.

(plus shrimp, plantains, rice and beans and mango mousse)

Today was a great day!  I hope you enjoyed your Cinco De Mayo!

A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

Remember that little lent thing of working out 'er day?  Yea, didn't happen.  

Remember my goal of being in better shape in year 40?  Yea, hasn't happened...yet.

I went on a date last weekend with an ex and he sent me pictures from the date.  YIKES.  He looked good (ok, he needs to loose weight but he's a comedian and he's fine with it, it's part of his routine now...lol), meanwhile I looked like I was very Hip. LITERALLY.  I never knew my hips were (or could get) so wide!  Yet, my date loved them.  He said I had woman curves now!  ROTFL  I was horrified.  I have a few too many curves, in a few too many places.  He even said, "hey did your boobs get bigger."  Yea, that's what happens with weight, it just goes everywhere!  ARGHH  I was pretty okay with my girl curves as he called them.  I don't know if I'll have them back again because once you hit that pause button you fight and fight and DARN IT fight for every freakin' ounce but this is ridiculous.  I'm not going out like a punk.  

Those pictures were scary!  I'm back in the gym with classes because obviously I need someone yelling at me.  Do you think I can tighten some of this up by my birthday in a month?  Let's hope so because I'm going shopping for my 40th and I would like to buy my normal size!  

So, the moral to the story is...take a picture...that will smack a bit of reality into your life!  

Any words of encouragement are welcomed!